When we become a parent.

When I was pregnant with my third child it was an easy pregnancy because I know what to do and how to take care of myself. Since this third pregnancy came before I knew this I just called everything off with the father of my children because it is not going to work and when you are both titans you will always clash. I also made a wrong move of going after my plan of finding another job that is less stress free and can pay the tuition of my boys but before I can sign my contract they cannot accept me because they have medical clause about workers that are pregnant. My future came crashing down with a speed of light because of the unravelling events. As events overwhelm me I had asked help of my family and they have said yes. I was ashamed of what happened because I didn’t plan this and my family has so much to take in. I didn’t  go to an ob gyne to have this 3^rd baby check monthly I just went to my instinct and monitor what I ate. Then came the time that I have to deliver her my only daughter and after an hour from surgery she was finally out. So I thought that everything was fine but when I asked where she is nurses said that she is still in the nursery and was not yet advice to be out. As I waited after a day I know that something is wrong then the doctor of the nursery department came to talk to me and said that my daughter’s life is in critical condition because she cannot breathe on her own, her blood is turning into acid and not generating blood. The first thing I did after hearing this is I prayed to God Almighty to give me strength and go the distance for my daughter. It paid off because on all the days that she stayed in the nicu (nursery intensive care unit) I stayed with her, prayed the rosary with her, asked for her progress and bought all the things the doctor prescribed. After 20 days she came through and I was happy because God was there to make the distance for me and her. It is then I realized how hard it was for my mom to be a mom.